Two months and ten days since we lost you for ever....everything is standing still....only the stupid clock keeps ticking away!!....


My brother in law died last night.....

Please, oh please, someone, anyone, wake me up and tell me I'm just having a nightmare!!!

Last Sunset

I have no recollection of what kind of weather we had on the 5th of July....someone will remind me if I ask. Everything is a big black blurr.....

At 8.15pm heart of my darling stopped beating....

We were all here...all his loved ones holding his hands, gently talking to him realizing that he decided to part with us.

Nothing is real.....nothing fits.....How on earth do I continue without him??

I hear him calling, I hear him breathing...Most of all I wish I could see him walking trough the door, but I don't.

All I see is him laying in that bed that was his prison for last six months!!!

Someones birthday today

Today is M's birthday......little tyke is 4 years old!!
We should be there celebrating together with rest of the family!!
How strange is all this....
This can't be real.....please someone, wake me and tell me it's just a bad bad dream!!